Lloyd Teo
20090916
Am I just another post-it note?
One who is thrown away after use?
LLOYD
23:07
20090910
Watched the last episode of the destiny show.
The plot is really great, and it ended off beautifully.
I feel much happier but empty at the same time as the show has ended.
For a moment I felt like I was in the show myself. So enjoyable!
Dreamy...
Shit!
LLOYD
19:44
20090909
Troubles are all around me lately.
I was leading a fine life these 2 years, thinking that solitude was a factor.
The moment only lasted 13 days. And it was my first and my last.
I bet you had no idea how important and significant it was to me.
To you, it is just another usual, or rather a casual one.
It should be easy for you to forget and let go of.
But it isn't the same to me.
You drew my happiness at first but tore it all apart.
You built up my strength to love at first but crushed it all back down.
You wouldn't have any idea how vividly I remember every single detail of it.
You wouldn't have any idea how much tears I have shed for the end of it.
You wouldn't have any idea how long I took and the effort I put in into forgetting all of it.
And you had to suddenly speak to me just to make the effort all so futile.
I thought I have changed these 2 years, being an innocent boy who has never committed himself in relationships.
But I failed and lost the battle when I was reminded of you.
Why?
Isn't our current relationship good for the both of us?
Why suddenly choose to remind me of the past?
I was doing very well trying to forget it.
In fact I almost did.
But you stopped me.
You came back and now I can't forget it.
WHAT THE F DID YOU DO THAT FOR?!
__________________________
Exams are approaching.
But as I type this I clench my fist, thinking of the whole pile of shit I'm facing now.
1. Family matters
2. Friends
3. Poor grades
4. Weak attention and motivation towards studies
5. Demoralisation from Preliminary 3 Examinations.
6. State of dilemma over whether to drop my sciences.
It's not the power of one.
It's the power of all 6 problems that kills my interest and enthusiasm in life.
What's the point when there's no cure for some?
As hard as I try to not get involved with my family matters, it pulls me deeper.
I am guilt-ridden over the latest mishap that has affected my family, as well as my relatives.
I'm sorry. It was really unexpected. I can't forgive myself because I am part of the cause.
And each morning I wake up, trying to cry but I can't.
And the more I think about it, the more I don't feel like living.
And my parents have been intimidating me recently.
With their nonsensical and unreasonable actions lately, I have no choice but to succumb to them.
When I see friends and cousins being so loving and being loved, I feel jealous.
Why am I not like them? Why do I feel annoyance whenever something exists?
Why can't I accept them? Why do I lack the respect for them?
I really want to love you, mum and dad.
But you have never given me a complete opportunity.
One time you treat me nicely with patience, the next time you yell at me with hatred.
Of course I won't like it, I learn from you and I yell back with rudeness.
I wanted to try my best to change for the better to suit you, I know it's all for myself.
But every time I almost succeed, accusations and unreasonable statements fail me.
The thing I really hate you for, is the sarcastic tone you use to threaten me.
They are so exaggerating, so fake, and they get on my nerves.
Do you really think I don't know that they are all lies?
One example:
Recently, you randomly come to me and tell me that this person is working really hard for O levels.
You even lied and said that he did very well for his studies and that he's way more hardworking than me.
Where you went wrong:
1. You didn't get the facts right: He did worse than me for 'O' level chinese, and he's still hanging out everyday with his friends.
2. You shouldn't compare me with him, we are two different people.
Another one:
You state random crap that is so ridiculous.
YOU BETTER OFF THE COMPUTER IN 5 MINUTES. THERE IS A TIMER THAT WILL DESTROY IT IF YOU DON'T OFF.
YOU THINK YOU A* IN PSLE ENGLISH YOUR ENGLISH VERY GOOD NOW AH?
YOUR TEACHERS IN SCHOOL CALL ME AND TOLD ME ABOUT YOUR MISBEHAVIOUR IN SCHOOL ALREADY.
Where you went wrong:
1. There is no timer in the computer that will destroy it. Even if there is, you won't know how to set it up. You can't even afford such tools!
2. I didn't say that my english is very good now. Let me get this clear to all people. Even those guys in school who think I'm bragging: It's YOU who think that way. Not me.
3. Please, I dare to say I don't misbehave.
Now you make me hate you.
And I feel like I'm unfilial and disrespectful.
I hate myself now.
Can I die?
Friends are something I really cherish, but whenever I need them, they don't seem to be there.
Recently, I feel like I have lost another one, or rather my last one.
I hope you will read this and know that I'm referring to you.
I have always treated you as my best friend.
I thought you would make a great friend because you were patient, understanding, and you would always share your secrets with me.
When you told me no one else, (not even your closest friends whom you always hang out with) knew, I felt really honoured because I know that I'm important to you.
Our friendship is a discreet yet unstable one:
Each time we talked we would move closer by an inch.
But each time we didn't talk we would fall apart by a yard.
And ever since you've made outstanding progress with a friend, I felt that I have totally lost the position in your heart.
Seeing you hitting it off so well I feel happy for you, but at the same time I'm jealous.
I doubt you know that.
What am I reduced to now?
Guy friends are also becoming less and less trustworthy.
I can't tell who are solemn and serious, and who are just casual and easygoing.
I needed true friends but I don't see any that are able to share understandings and emotions.
I hang out with them, true. But I don't feel safe or secure.
Faces of acceptance show, but who knows if behind my back they change into annoyance, unacceptance, or even hatred.
I look like I'm happy with them but I don't feel like that.
When they mention about sensitive things I feel offended by, I try my best not to retaliate and feign ignorance.
But actually deep down inside my heart, I minded.
And you were one of them.
I feel like dying.
Escaping from troubles may not be a solution, but at least I don't have to bother about them anymore.
LLOYD
23:30
Happy Nine Day!
It's 9th of September 2009, 9:09:09PM!
I love you forever and ever, let's be lovers for 999999 years.
LLOYD
21:09
20090901
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL TEACHERS.
LLOYD
10:30
20090831
In regard to the popular demand, fabulous response and feedback on my COPES Diary book,
I have decided to expand my illustrations and diary entries into technology, using Adobe Flash CS3 [smoothing] and Adobe Photoshop CS3 [detailing] to hand-mouse-draw the images.
As for the hand-drawn and written diary, I will continue to update it with entries, to serve as ideas as well as a prelude to my online diary.
Meanwhile, here are a few characters I have already spent effort drawing.
They will be the userpics of my new livejournal blog - which will soon become our very own Diary Of An Ordinary Kid.
This is me, Lloyd. I'm holding a gigantic pencil because I'm gonna be the editor of this diary. Cool ain't it? You're gonna see lots of me when you visit the diary page.
This is Kun, Kun Xian. He's holding two mandarin oranges? Oh it's a tradition for him to present a pair on festive celebrations like Chinese New Year. But in the big realm of China, he is known as the Lord Of The Nine Dragons, and along with his martial arts and sword mastery, he can really kill. Big.
Speaking about big, here's big. Steven. He's really friendly but cocky at times. Or should I say, most of the times. But he's quite a big friend of Lloyd, they share many experiences, like the ones Lloyd wrote in his diary.
Whoa. Who's this bodybuilder? Joe. Watched G.I. Joe - Rise of the cobra? Being self-proclaimed as one of the two Joes [Ripcord and Duke], he flaunts his bulging biceps wherever he goes. But he gotta do a little lawn mowing under that arm. Or he should just deforest the whole of that Amazon.
Well, stay tuned for more characters in - Diary Of An ORDINARY Kid!!!!
This is Kun, Kun Xian. He's holding two mandarin oranges? Oh it's a tradition for him to present a pair on festive celebrations like Chinese New Year. But in the big realm of China, he is known as the Lord Of The Nine Dragons, and along with his martial arts and sword mastery, he can really kill. Big.
Speaking about big, here's big. Steven. He's really friendly but cocky at times. Or should I say, most of the times. But he's quite a big friend of Lloyd, they share many experiences, like the ones Lloyd wrote in his diary.
Whoa. Who's this bodybuilder? Joe. Watched G.I. Joe - Rise of the cobra? Being self-proclaimed as one of the two Joes [Ripcord and Duke], he flaunts his bulging biceps wherever he goes. But he gotta do a little lawn mowing under that arm. Or he should just deforest the whole of that Amazon.Well, stay tuned for more characters in - Diary Of An ORDINARY Kid!!!!
LLOYD
19:46
20090829
30 Aug 2009
You say I use the computer too much.
Then I say you smoke the cigarettes too much.
Who's worse off?
Computer VS Cigarettes
Advantages of the computer:
1. Gain a wide range of knowledge.
2. Improve your senses and hand-eye coordination when you play games.
3. An activity that lets go of stress.
4. Keeps you updated with the latest stuff.
Disadvantages of the computer:
1. Gain wrong form of knowledge and digress from goals in life.
2. Worsens your eyesight.
3. May cause impatience
Advantages of the cigarette:
NONE. Well maybe for you, feel good.
Disadvantages of the cigarette:
1. Pass 2nd hand smoke to innocent people like your family.
2. Likely cause serious health problems.
3. Waste of money.
4. Rots your breath and decays your teeth.
5. Blackens your face and your organs.
6. Makes you what you are now.
As the number of advantages and disadvantages each subject has, it suggests, without having to say, that computer is way better off then your damn cigarettes. So fork off and don't call me an addict.
__________________________________________________________________
I can't stand you.
Just because you didn't get things done your way, you make things difficult for me.
You should probably just figure out by yourself where to watch these shows since you are more addicted to them than I am.
Don't pester me. Don't stop me from doing what I want.
Cause the shows you want to watch is none of my business.
LLOYD
00:10
20090826
Random rants when I'm studying halfway will be posted at the top of the post:
Oh yeah man oldies rock
I realise I'm very frugal cause I don't have a iPhone or any gaming console muahaha is that a valid reason? And also I save the Earth by typing this instead of writing it out.
Shit. I don't want to type liao. Bo bian, can read only.
HUMAN GEOGRAPHY
the best boredom breaking subject to ever start studying
1. PLATE TECTONICS
oh yeah pump it harder lets get it going on and dont stop
Structure Of Earth
Inner Core - 1370km - 3000 to 5000 degrees Celsius
Outer Core - 2100km - 3000 to 5000 degrees Celsius
Mantle - 2900km - 1400 to 3000 degrees Celcius
Continental Crust - 10 to 70km - (-14) to 1200 degrees Celcius - less dense materials e.g. Aluminium
Oceanic Crust - 5 to 10km - (-14) to 1200 degrees Celcius - denser materials e.g. Magnesium
Convection Currents
1 - High temperatures in the mantle heat up the magma, causing it to rise to the surface.
2 - As it rises towards the crust, the magma spreads beneath the surface and cools, causing it to sink back to the mantle.
3 - During the spreading of magma beneath the Earth's surface, tectonic plates are dragged apart.
4 - During the cooling and sinking of magma, tectonic plates are pushed together and compressed.
5 - The magma which sinks, gets heated up by the mantle again and rises againnnn. Cycle repeats.
Plate Boundaries
Divergent Boundaries - Constructive Boundaries cos new lands are formed.
OO - Sea floor spreading occurs. Magma rises to fill up the gap & solidify to create new sea floors. Ridge is formed.
Example - Mid-Atlantic Ridge between South American and African plate.
CC - Fractures formed. Land in between sinks to form rift valley which can be filled with water over time to form a sea.
Example - East African Rift Valley and Red Sea between African and Arabian plate.
Convergent Boundaries - Destructive Boundaries cos crust is being destroyed.
OC - O sinks under C cos O is made up of denser Magnesium. Subduction occurs at subduction zone, duh, and an O trench is formed. Part of the sunken O crust melts in the hot magma due to intense pressure and heat. The magma rises through fractures in the C crust and emerge above the Earth's surface and solidifies to form fold mountains and volcanoes.
Example - Peru-Chile Trench and Andes Mountains between Nazca and South American plate.
OO - Denser O sinks under less dense O. The further away the O is from sea floor spreading, the denser it is. Subduction again, and trench is formed. Part of the sunken O crust melts in the hot magma due to intense pressure and heat, and rises through fractures in the less dense O crust and pour on its floor to form undersea volcanoes, which over time can build up and appear above the sea to form volcanic islands.
Example - Mariana Trench and Mariana Islands between Philippine and Pacific plate.
CC - C crusts are pushed against each other, causing bending and raising and buckling and folding to form fold mountains LOL.
Example - Himalayas between Indo-Australian and Eurasian plate.
Transform Boundaries
Two plates slide past each other and forms a transform fault. Earthquakes are common. That means Gravelers live in there. Oops.
Example - San Andreas Fault between North American and Pacific plate. Hell yeah one chapter is done, 1 book and 8 more chapters to go [keep it going man]
2. PLATE MOVEMENTS
oh yeah i love to move it like plates and erupt like volcanoes
Fold Mountains
Thousands of years of bending and raising of the Earth's crust when two C/one C and one O plate(s) collide. Rock strata compressed, causing buckling and folding.
Young fold mountains - 100 million years and you call that young - 8000m - Example - Himalayas
Old fold mountains - 270 - 400 million years and thats ancient - much lower in height - Example - Appalachian
Rocks fold according to the pressure exerted on them.
Anticline - n shape. Syncline - u shape.
Found along convergent boundaries.
Fault
Formed because its all your fault I mean by faults.
Normal Fault /\- Tensional forces - Slope formed.
Reverse Fault \/- Compressional forces - Overhanging scarp eroded to form slope.
Tear Fault - Either force but sliding past each other in horizontal direction.
Block Mountains - Huge blocks of rocks with steep slopes - Found along diverging boundaries
Can be formed by normal and reverse faults.
1. Tensional forces pull the rock away from each other, causing normal faults. The two ends of the rock, moving away from each other, sinks and leave the one in the middle standing tall and proud, forming a block mountain!
2. Compressional forces push the rock against each other, causing reverse faults. The forces push the rock in the middle, causing it to rise up, standing tall and proud, forming a block mountain! And the overhanging scarp is eroded.
Rift Valleys - Lowlands surrounded by steep slopes on both sides of valley - Found along diverging boundaries
Tensional forces pull the rock away from each other, causing normal faults. The rock in the middle sinks when the two ends move away from each other, forming a rift valley.
Volcanoes - found along both convergent and divergent boundaries
Process:
1. High temperature in the mantle causes magma to rise and forms a magma chamber.
2. The pressure accumulates until it bei tahan then it forces its way through vents and emerge on the Earth's surface. Boom boom pow eruption. I've got that rock and roooooll - that future floooow~
3. Smoke, ash and cinder ejected together with the magma.
4. Lava solidifies on the surface and builds up to form a bigger cone-shape volcano. Distance that lava has to travel before reaching the crater also increases.
Basic lava - low viscosity - can flow easily and far before it solidifies - high temperature of about 1100 to 1200 deg Celcius
Acid lava - high viscosity - resistant to flow and solidifies easily - lower temperature of about 800 to 1000 deg Celcius
Shield Volcano
Quiet and non-violent eruption of basic lava which flows over wide areas before it solidifies which also results in easy escape of gas and steam, hence forming the gentle slopes throughout and flatness near the top.
Example - Mauna Loa, Hawaii
Acid Volcano
Violent eruption of acid lava which flows over small areas before it solidifes at the top, causing pressure of gas and steam escaping, hence forming steep slopes throughout.
Example - Mount Mayonnaise, Philippines
Composite Volcano
Violent eruption of acid lava which solidifies near the crater, along with ash and cinder which lands near the base will result in steep slopes at the top and gentle ones at the bottom. Alternating layers of lava and ash+cinder are also formed.
Example - Mount Vesuvius, Italy
Earthquakes prelude
Process:
1. Tectonic plates move and exert friction on one another, causing pressure to build up
2. Pressure accumulates and energy is stored in the crust
3. When the pressure can no longer be contained, energy is released in the form of shock waves (boom) and cause large faults when rocks jerk off. LOL
Keypoints:
Focus - the point where energy is released
Epicentre - the point on the earth's surface above the focus
3. EARTHQUAKES
tackle, rollout, rock throw, magnitude, earthquake, selfdestruct, explosion
Hazards
1. Collapse of infrastructure - Buildings collapse or have their foundations weakened - Lives will be affected. Example - 1999 Izmit Earthquake, Turkey, 4000 buildings destroyed
2. Fire - Earthquakes can damage wires, stoves and gas pipes which can cause fire which in turn causes deaths and collapse of infrastructure - People will be injured and homeless - Example - 1995 Kobe Earthquake, Japan, wooden houses caught fire - Somebody call 911 shawty fire burning on the dance floor, whoa~
3. Landslides - Soil loosen by earthquakes - Large amount of rock and soil slide down especially from mountainous and hilly areas - People and infrastructure will be buried - Example 1999 Taiwan Earthquake, entire villages buried
4. Tsunamis - Triggered by undersea earthquakes - Big waves travelling towards land, slow down when it reaches the land and crashes on you for a GG - Example 2004 Indian Ocean Tsunami, caused massive destruction in Sumatra
Impacts
1. Loss of lives - Died from fires, collapse of infras., landslides or tsunamis - Or suffered injuries and died from delayed relief - Aftershock tremors may occur and kill more people - Example 2005 Kashmir EQ, transport disrupted, rescue teams unable to save injured soon enough, so they die.
2. Negative Economic Impacts - Infrastructure destroyed and brings inconvenience to businesses and economy - Also deters investments - Example 1995 Kobe EQ, Japan, approx S$100 billion of repair cost gosh thats alot
3. Spread Of Diseases - Homeless people living in overcrowded and improperly sanitised shelters will spread diseases like cholera and typhoid - Dead bodies and poisonous substances can pollute water supplies, causing water-borne diseases - Example don't have.
4. Trauma - Family members gone, shock and paranoia on them, blah blah blah, lose job and house, emotional and psychological pain and problems blah blah
5. Disruption Of Jobs - Fishermen loss of business, fishing boat destroyed, coral reefs and marine lifes affected by tsunami - tourist industry affected because people kia si - example 2004 Indian Ocean Tsunami
Factors
SHIT.
LLOYD
20:06
you are a forking hypocrite.
LLOYD
19:51